Spiritual Advice, in the manner of Oprah!
You need to meditate. As your life takes on a new clarity (I would try a bottle of Everclear if I were you) then you see things in a hole new way. You just look down the bottle neck. See! It’s in there. Now dive in. it gets easier the second time around. And the third. Soon the White Rabbit appears. Take whatever pill he offers you. Yes, all of them.